Thursday, November 23, 2006,
sometimes no matter how much u do, the results will still be the same or even got worst than before. i hav been bottling up my fears & worries so much that i am going to breakdown one day. i seriously hav no ideas on how to console her. i tried every method i could think of, but it still didn works.
yesterday, we had a small talk. she asked me to be good to my dad. she said if dad wants money in the future, giv it to him.Then, she sighed and walked away. she made me feel so guilty and helpless because i simply cant do anything to help her but to look at her souless back and cried secretly. i wanted so much to tell her how i feel, but words jus wun come out.
i simply love her so much. i am afraid my life will be in a mess without her. i depend too much on her and i wish this can goes on forever. i envied those people who hav healthy family. each time i look at them, they will reminds me of her. she used to be like one before. how i wish i am the one who is sick. the one who is suffering cos i simply love her too much. i love her and it will always be the same.
6:55 PM